Thursday, June 28, 2007

case CLOSED

there are no words left to say.

i asked you the most important question of all--
and you panicked
with all your reasons
(actually, non reasons)
as your answer
(actually, non answer).

i only asked you
what your soul required;
not what your business,
parents,
employees,
friends
required.

you choose Soul,
all else follows.

you choose less than Soul,
all else follow, too.

i do not belong
to less than Soul.
i am sorry.
you cannot have it
both ways.


as always,
you know
i spoke the Truth
of you and i.

and as always,
it spooked you
into panic
and mindless rationalizations.

Thank you, though.
You have just
suddenly
freed me,
released me
completely.

what a pure, exhilarating feeling,
clear-seeing--
i can move on fully
now.


There are no words left to say.

My Tarot Today

Seven of Wands in the "Love and Me" position--

A positive attitude and strong potential prime you to achieve something exceptional in the relationship arena.

The card in the Love & Me position touches on an aspect of how you perceive yourself right now.

The Seven of Wands in this position points to a personal breakthrough or a moment of triumph. You have done a lot of work on your ability to relate to others and are at the peak of your potential.

You are a winner even if the proof hasn't manfested just yet. With such a positive attitude and strong potentials so carefully cultivated, you are bound to make a strong showing with regard to the relationship itself or something that involves you and the other person.

Temperance in the "Love Situation" position--

The situation or relationship's call for transformation or awakening is being answered.

The card that lands in the Love Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your relationship at this time.

The Angel of Healing in this position means both you and the person you are involved with (or desire) will intrinsically understand that healing produces revolutionary change on both sides of the equation. Set each other free of the old roles and projections. You have needed things to be different and now they will be.

Do not think for a moment that this relationship is not worth the effort. You will both emerge with much higher self-esteem and fewer regrets if you make the effort to see things through. Sometimes the remedy is found in going through the process rather than in arriving at any specific outcome.

Prince of Cups in the "Love Challenges" position--

Your hard-won relationship wisdom can help protect others from their inexperience or foolishness. Be generous with it.

The card that lands in the Love Challenges position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

With the Knight of Cups (in some decks, a Prince) in this position, you may distill the essence of what you have learned on your journey, in order to let your wisdom inform the dreams and aspirations of others. Not everyone is able to go through the kind of awesome transformation you have. But you can wring the essence of your relationship, with all the feelings and insights that came with it, into the grail cup.

Thus collected, you may share this elixir of knowledge. This multiplies the benefits of your quest, and vindicates the difficulty of your labors, by uplifting everyone. In this way you can also relieve some of the loneliness you suffered while undergoing your trials.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

can't go back

24 hours--
what a vast world
it reveals:

after i made my "vow"
i thought i got excited
talking to old lovers
again.

but only for a while.

old lovers
talking sexy
insinuating bliss...

i used to take flight
on those fixes alone
but now
no more.

...

i can't go back there
anymore.

although
it is a part of me

it isn't me either
anymore.

...

next week
monday
next week

is now
no more.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

this wildwoman's vow

i'm washing you off
my hair,
my skin,
my life,
my heart

with a good man's
good loving
again

you'll see.

a full year--
i saved my self up
for you,
for us--

but you just
threw it all away
for what?

for lesser
easier
meaningless
trifles.

my only fault
was letting my heart
lead
again

casting pearls
before swine.

next week
monday
next week

i'm meeting an old lover again
for some cherishing
licking
loving
healing
of all the unnecessary wounds
you caused.

you undeserving swine.

i will be reborn
reclaimed

my pearls
mine
again.



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